“I’m Hearing Voices” Blogfest Day 1: Characters On the Couch

It’s day one of the Blogfest hosted over at Live to Write…Edit When Necessary and Reading, Writing, and Lovin’ It! Today’s challenge is:

“Characters on the couch: Have one of your characters answer the following questions (to make this work to your benefit, choose a character who is the hardest for you to write 🙂 Max 250 words (Not including the questions—only the answers).
I’ve decided to use a CROSS// character, Syrfila Tograten, alias and officially known in the series as “Yumiko Kobayashi“.
Well, this picture sums her up. We’re done here. Everyone go home.

She’s in that awkward void between protagonist and just so utterly horrible of a human being that I don’t want to call her a protagonist. All you really need to know is that she’s an intergalactic criminal. She blew up a planet or two.

1.      What is your biggest vulnerability? Do others know this or is it a secret?

I am alone. Even when I surround myself with people, I am alone. I keep people at a distance.  I think it’s pretty obvious to most people who know me. It’s one reason they hate me.
There’s no one to turn to. I truly am alone.
2.      What do people believe about you that is false?
I suppose most people think I am incapable of being selfless. That I can’t “love”. They may even say they don’t think I love myself. At this point in my existence, they may be right. I really don’t care about anyone else. But I did once. I didn’t realize how much I cared about her until I was arrested.
3.      What would your best friend say is your fatal flaw? Why?
My best friend? I guess the closest thing I have to one of those…ha, she would say that it’s just generally being a horrible person. The thing is, I know she’s right. But I can’t stop hurting her. Seeing her in pain means we’re equals.
4.      What would the same friend say is your one redeeming quality? Why?
I am the only person she can confide in. I know who she is and where she’s been. She hates it, but at least she sees some use in me.
5.      What do you want most? What will you do to get it?

I just don’t want to die like that. I don’t want to be caged like some animal and then shot for the entire universe to see. I don’t want the last thing I hear to be the cheers and jeers. I don’t want the last thing I see to be her, commanding my death.
I’ve killed to save myself from this. I will kill again. I would kill you. Selflessly.

(fun fact: the answers are exactly 250 words!…according to Word, anyway.)